I am seeing my GP in an hour, can you help me organise my thoughts please?

[BloominMarvellous]

I have suffered with depression for such a long time but always thought it was more than that. I could never put my finger on it but knew it was something more than a low mood.

I have never been able to finish anything, procasination is my best skill and I give up far too easily. This has resulted in me never being in a job longer than 12 months and always flitting from one thing to another. I get these great ideas and think 'I WILL do this' but ALWAYS give up.

I also have PTSD (Abusive relationship) and self harm and binge eat.

I am very compulsive in lots of ways. (Shopping, eating, spending, have big ideas that never come to anything.)

Having done some research and looked at a lot of MH threads here I recognise myself in a lot of ADHD symptoms along with binge eating and depression. Is it possible to have all of these at the same time?

How do I talk to my GP about it?

Do I just concentrate on one thing (the binge eating is the one causing the worst depression as I am now very overweight) or do I tell my GP all of this and see where we go?

I am receiving therapy for the PTSD (EMDR) but I feel that this isn't enough. When I have dealt with this I will still have all of the other stuff going on and I feel like I have just had enough. I feel like a failure because I can't finish anything. I struggle with basic housework unless I am having a 'up' day which is rare.

I am sorry for the rant, I just needed to get all of these thoughts down. Its all swimming around my head and I don't want to go to the GP and rant to him so it doesn't make sense.

It's a good idea to write a list. Have you got a double appointment? If not you might be right to prioritise the issues.

I haven't got a double appointment. I didn't think of that.

I will write a list and see what they suggest. I just have this feeling that there is a lot more to this than depression and PTSD and I need to go with my instincts.

Good luck!

sounds like you need to get him/her to refer you to someone with more time and expertise, or else organise a half hour appointment to talk through everything in a bit more detail. Good luck, let us know how it goes.

Well it went better than I anticipated.

I just rambled A LOT. But she has referred me to a psychiatrist which should take about 4 weeks.

She completely dismissed ADHD but to be honest I am still going to mention it to the psychiatrist as it would explain so much. It really would.

She said everything I said is probably part and parcel of depression. But I am still not convinced.

So all in all I am happy with the result as it gives me the chance to explain all of this to a specialist and hope they can do something

I'm glad you've got a referral

Thank you

Does anyone have any experience in this? Am I on the right tracks or could it just be depression?

I have had a look at the Royal College Of Psychiatrists website (as advised by GP) and I can tick every single box for the symptoms of ADHD. It really would explain my whole life.

I am going to push for an assessment when I get to see the psychiatrist even though the GP dismissed it.

I am not sure what the point is of posting this. I think I just need to get it out as I don't have anyone I can tell in RL.

Writing stuff down can help you work through it. Be prepared for a bit of a wait for the psychiatrist though.

Lack of motivation, procrastination, and other symtoms you've described - for a long time I thought they were symptoms of depression, but NO being like that led to depression. I've concluded the same as you, plus I think I have AS.

I actually have a different diagnosis, but have pressed my psych for a referral and he has referred. I now approach my life with the assumption that I have AS and ADHD, and do work arounds accordingly. And things have improved a lot.

I haven't been diagnosed but my son has AS and he is just like me in many respects. My brother has AS too but very severely.

Bloomin I hope having a diagnosis really helps you.