I have always suffered from mood swings but about 2 years ago I went on the contraceptive pill and it sent me absolutely crazy. I felt murderous. One day I remember being stood in the kitchen, my partner at the time was in there talking to his daughter and a sudden rage just came over me, I literally had to leave the room I was so angry - nothing had happened or was said, I just suddenly became so angry I felt I was a danger to people. I started smoking again after having quit 8 years ago.
So I came off the pill and my moods calmed down but the cycles continued - up one minute, down the next. I ignored it because it was ignorable. But for the past year they've been bad again and are getting worse. I'll be fine one minute and the next day I'll be so depressed I start questioning everything - my career, my relationship, my health, my own sanity - everything. I have no energy or motivation on these days and I don't eat. Sometimes it just lasts the one day, sometimes about 3 days but never more than that. And then as suddenly as it comes on, it goes off again and I feel on top of the world, hyper, motivated, confident, happy and energetic. I eat loads, spend loads, laugh loads (usually at things that nobody else finds funny) and just feel a little crazy basically.
I definitely feel it is getting worse. One day I went to work feeling really so depressed I didn't know if I'd last the day out. By 10am I was working on excuses to leave and go home. I struggled through and then all of a sudden it changed to a mood of excitement, happiness - I love everybody and everything - I stayed for overtime.
I'm horrible to my kids, blow hot and cold with my partner, snap at my mum, make arrangements with friends during my "good" moods and then cancel on them because I've come down again - I'm just so sick of it.
I know I should go to doctors but I feel it would be such a long drawn out process I just can't be arsed with it :(