I have a pretty bad one and it's bothering me that it's stopping me from doing other things like going to the dentist
and the other big thing - travelling.
I've always just had the attitude that there are plenty of nice places in the world you can travel to without needing vaccination and that I'd rather just not go somewhere that needs a vaccination.
However, DP's sister and family just got back from Egypt raving about it and they want us all to go there next year for new year. DP really wants to go and I don't want to miss out, but the thought of the vaccinations makes me feel really panicky, to the point that I'm seriously considering letting DP take DS and them all go without me
DP says he doesn't mind if I go or not, but I can tell he's a bit miffed as it would be the first time we'd all go on holiday together as a family. And I would love to go on holiday with them all but I'm feeling really resentful about the fact it has to be Egypt, and I think a big part of it is the vaccination thing.
It's ridiculous really, I'm 24 and shouldn't still be worried about this kind of thing but while just discussing it with DP I felt so faint that I had to put my head between my legs and eat something sugary
I still feel light-headed and I might not even have to do it!
I can just about cope with blood tests since pregnancy and I was in hospital about a year ago with a kidney infection and could cope with the drip canula thing, although it was horrible when they had to redo it, but the thought of anything into the muscle makes me panic hugely. I had to have the anti-blood-clot injection in hospital and it was honestly one of the most painful and the most traumatic things I've ever experienced, and I still feel (probably imaginary!) twinges in the injection site. I know this is an overreaction and that was probably psychological rather than it physically being that painful, but the thought of having any injection makes me feel sick and faint.
I've even put off DS having his childhood inoculations because I'm worried that my attitude and my fear will rub off on him and he will develop a phobia too. He's 4 and still hasn't had the preschool boosters (the only ones he's missing) although I've promised myself I'll take him this year.