Im not sure where to start really,i know there is probably no one to see this right now but i needed to type it. i feel like killing myself right,im trying hard not to do anything really stupid but i dont think i have the willpower.
i have 5 kids that i love with all my heart but i feel like a teribble mother.
i`ve had depression as long as i can remember , i self harm alot .
i told my husband i was going to take all the pills in the house which consists of tramadol co codamol but he went to bed.
i feel so alone and just wish i had someone to talk to