What is fucking wrong with me??? I have had enough :(

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Warning Self-Indulgent Rant.....

I cannot believe I have done it again. I knew I would, I can't believe I am so weak.

I have PTSD, depression and anxiety. To top it off I am a binge eater. I am having therapy for the PTSD but the binge eating won't be dealt with until afterwards so could be months.

Over the last few days I have obsessed about chinese (My favourite food) I can literally see it and taste it and it has been hell. Every time I have eaten I have wished it was chinese food.

Today I cracked, I went to my favourite all you can eat buffet and stuffed myself silly. Now I am sat here in tears hating myself. I feel disgusting. I don't recognise myself anymore.

It all sounds so stupid written down. I have started taking Fluoxetine again which is supposed to help with binge eating but its still early days.

Please can you share your experiences on how you deal with binge eating? I need to do something.

Hello lovely. I have no experience of binge eating but I didn't want your post to go unanswered.

I overeat by about 2 or 3 full meals everyday. In your shoes I would try to experiment making chinese food at home - cheaper, healthier but similar enough to satisfy the cravings - Gok Wan has a fab book about cooking chinese food at home.

I'm currently having lots of roast veg with my dinners to fill me up, but with fewer calories than other foods!

A lot of my 'hunger' is about my head and not my tummy though.

Thank you for replying.

I am feeling a little better today, it is annoying because I know what I need to do. I just can't get my brain to co-operate when I am in that frame of mind. Nothing can stop me. I am literally obsessed until I get what I am craving!!

Mad really!