I was diagnosed with mild PND a couple of months ago, and have been referred for CBT, but due to having to wait for ages for a GP appt, the referral came through over Christmas, and I haven't called them to set it up yet.
The main problem at the moment is a crippling fear of phoning anyone, and I don't know why! I need to call them to get the CBT started, but just cannot bring myself to pick up the phone. Break out in a clammy sweat if I even think about it, and it has been preying on my mind since I got the referral letter on new year's eve.
My main symptom of PND has been/is anxiety over travelling outside areas I know well, so it is pretty limiting, and my parents want me to drive up and visit my nan in her new house soon, but I just can't stop worrying about the journey. It is only an hour away, I have been once before, but got horribly lost, and drove round Peterborough looking for a way out whilst DD screamed and DS got out of his car seat.
Mum had PND when my sister was born and because I am not having the same problems she did, does not believe I have anything to worry about, so is incredibly dismissive of my anxiety, just telling me to get more sleep. Problem is, I can't sleep for worrying about the driving, or phoning the mental health team, so it is a bit of a vicious circle at the moment.
Not sure why I'm writing this, maybe it will help me get a bloody grip and call them tomorrow, as clearly I am being totally pathetic at the moment.