I know there are others on here with much bigger challenges than me but I hoped I might be able to get some advice...
I've struggled with what I assume is some form of depression for years (maybe 10 or so) I find myself going through a period of intense dissatisfaction with my life, regrets/what ifs, difficulty sleeping, irritability, anxiety, emotional and just generally easily overwhelmed. Then after a few days/weeks it lifts and I'm back to my normal self. I've had beta blockers for short term anxiety a couple f years ago and they helped at the time.
A few months ago I had a particularly bad spell, my DP convinced me to go to the doctors (although I'm not convinced he understands) I went and the doctor was quite dismissive, said that he wouldn't describe anything as I didn't have suicidal thoughts, said there was a really long wait for counselling and gave me a useless website address.
Normally, I only realise what's happened when i'm already in the middle of it, this time I seem to have some clarity- I can feel myself becoming tense, and finding it difficult to concentrate (I feel fuzzy/foggy), I'm anxious about silly things and felt overwhelmed/tearful when shopping today. Should I go back and basically beg them to do something this time? or are there other things I can do to help myself?
thanks