Hi, I have been prescribed setraline 50mg today. I have always had struggles with my mental health, dropping out of uni years ago during a severe breakdown, and many members of my family suffer some form of distress. I have tried really hard to control my feelings amd stay on top of things but since I had my twins a couple of years ago I have been getting fairly severe pms. Most months, on one day, I completely lose it to the point of suicidal thoughts. Surrounding that day I become extremely tired, physically exhausted, struggle to concentrate and generally lack enthusiasm for life and feel overwhelmed with guilt (associated with a myriad of failings towards my children). The trouble is that thiis used to pass after a week at most but it's starting to take over more of my life to the point where I don't know if iit is pms or general misery. So in tears I finally spoke to the doctor.
I am now in bed struggling to come to terms with this. there are a million thoughts in my head but my main one is that how will this tablet fix me in the long run? This is not a mater of depression brought about by horrible circumstances, there is nothing to talk about and resolve. (not much, we all have issues!). But this is my body's reaction to hormones surely? So that willl go on happening after I stop the medication won't it?
I know I sound controlling but I need to have faith in the process I'm about to undergo. I'm scared of that little tablet and scared of what it means. I just want to enjoy life and not let this effect my 3 DDs anymore.