Hiya, I am a lone parent with 3 kids, dd, 11, ds, nearly 6 with severe special needs and dd, 9 weeks old.
I have a history of severe depression and severe postnatal depression and also severe OCD. I have been prescribed Diazepam 5mg on and off over the years along with anti depressants. Have bn on all antidepressants and the one that seems to work for me is citalopram. I am now up to 40mg and feel it working. I just feel like when I am taking diazepam, I function much better and am more motivated, enjoy life more etc. Most of the time, I shut myself away, only see my mum and dad, see my sister sometimes as she works a lot but would still say we are close. I have 3 friends who really help me out, although I shut myself away, I feel like I need someone here at nights etc as I get lonely, even tho the kids are here. I have my 3 kids to different guys. My dd I had when I was young, her dad and me split when she was 11 weeks, I then after a year met my ds's dad, we were together 7 years, was on my own a while and the first serious relationship I got into again, I fell pregnant with dd. He was the nicest guy but my hormones Etc and depression played havoc and we split. He was in touch every week, last I heard from him was May, baby was due October, I got in touch with him 2-3 weeks ago and he came to see her, sed he was over the moon, brought her clothes etc, was texting me afterwards saying I had looked good when he saw me etc, we discussed giving it another go very cautiously tho, taking it very very slow, then he out of nowhere started ignoring my texts and has now sed he wants nothing to do with me and doesn't want to see our dd. I keep texting him just for him to ignore me or tell me he wants nothing to
Do with me. Sorry for long post, just want you to all know the situation to date. Ty all in advance for any replies and god do I need replies !