I feel like I am looking at my life from the outside and can't enjoy it. I worry that my relationship will fail - even though it is fine - so I don't enjoy it cos I'm worrying about whether we are gonna make it work with all the other stress in our lives.
I get so depressed reading about all these cheating husbands and failed marriages I feel everyone is doomed to take each other for granted and get all horrible and bitter in the end.
We are very tight for money and I don't have a social life as work very long hours I have low self esteem and worry I will suffocate DP with my need for affection and reassurance and I want him to admire me as a person and for me to like myself too. But I'm so miserable!
So do not feel like sexy time or romantic things cos very "detached" can't relax and just worry worry worry... Trying to second guess what he is thinking etc which is so unhealthy I know - he is wonderful and 100% trustworthy so why can't I just trust him that he loves me and wants only me?
How can I get out of this rut??? I used to be on SSRIs but glad no longer on them and have felt better last few months except very recently.