Is it possible to be terrified of committing suicide without actually being suicidal?

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sometimes when I am really stressed and tired and I read or hear about suicide (on the news or whatever) I get really depressed and anxious, torturing myself with the thought what if I did that, lost control and killed myself. It is like a phobia, it really scares me, although I am not at all suicidal in my real life.

i understand what you mean,i sometimes get panicky about jumping off a building or balcony so i avoid them although im not scared of heights its a odd feeling&ive never told anyone about it as i think theyd think i was nutts

Yes it is

Can be a form of OCD as well, my DH has OCD but he doesn't have rituals of hand washing etc., it's all about obsessional thoughts plaguing him. All sorts of things that he would never ever do, but if he is having a bad patch, he can't stop thinking that he might do them.

On the PND and other depression tests I have seen there is usually a question which asks if you ahve ever felt suicidal or were worried that you might do it. Do you think you might be depressed jumpahead?

I have to avoid high escalators,large shopping centres on lots of levels-if i am ever up high i think OMG my head wants me to jump

i was going to say OCD. Like that man who had a fear of owning up to a crime that he hadn't commiteed. OCD can be about many different things.

I do that all the time, I'm scared of heights, and if I'm ever anywhere high up I get terrified that I might just jump off. I refused to go up the Eiffel tower when in Paris incase I jumped!

omg it great to see im not the only one who feels they may jump when high up(i thought i was mad lol)its awfull when abroad as we usualy get a high up place&it isalways in my head

althoughim not scared of heights

Read something in a magazine recently saying that it is often quite normal to have thoughts like these. The example they gave was driving down the motorway and having thoughts of wanting to take your hands off the wheel and see what happens. Can't remember the explanation behind it, I will try and look tonight and see if I still have the magazine. Think it might have been Eve.

also i was on holiday last year and had a very very high balcony not only did i fear i would jump(not realy wanting to)but i feared i would drop one of my kids off not wating to has anyone else had this as i often panic about it and cant get to sleep as i also feel guilty

OMG scooby I do exactly that, I always think I'll jump, but more often I think I'll drop DD over!
I refuse to lift her up to show her over balconies, bridges etc so sure in my head am I that I'll drop her over!

i've given this some thought recently. a neighbours son killed himself a couple of weeks ago, he was 17. we live near a railway line which their house backs on to. it seems he went to the end of their garden and jumped in front of a train. its really sad, the funeral was on saturday and they walked to the church following the coffin and a piper

we actually nearly bought their house when we moved here but the chain fell through and they took it off the market. we live on the other side of the road now, away from the trains

I'm the same, always feel I might jump even though I am not in the least bit suicidal, or even depressed. I'm also very, very panicky about my DS's being up high: in the local shopping centre they have glass windows that go up 20 foot and I am terrifieed of ds's going near them as they are on the second floor; ditto railings and i cannot bring myself to allow DH to carry them over the bridge back home. I even panic carrying them near the top of the stairs, where there is a low wall and large drop down.

i think its normal, I have heard other people say they feel the same.

its comforting to know others feel the same i may even tell my dp tonight,it has made me think that a lot of people that committ suicide and wasnt depressed or anything that maybe the urge ect overcome them and they jumped its very sad,im the same with railings/bridges too

there's a very good book called "Imp of the Mind" by Lee Baer about obsessive thoughts type OCD that you may find interesting/useful. I agree with Mrs Spoon - that everyone has weird thoughts every so often - it's when it starts to interfere with your daily life/quality of life that it becomes a problem.

Well I will admit to past OCD and a bout of agoraphobia last year... never related the things though. Oh well, you learn every day.
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