Having a wobble.

[fluffydressinggown]

I am having a huge wobble. Have been ok for a good few months and in the past 2/3 weeks have started to feel off again. Hard to explain really, just don't feel right.

My sleep is atrocious and getting worse, takes me hours to get to sleep and waking up loads in the night. CPN is sorting out a prescription for some sleeping tablets to see if that will help me.

I cut myself on Tuesday. Nothing serious but it is starting to feel quite reasonable to do some significant self harm. Feeling very suicidal.

I have told my CPN and psychologist about these feelings. They have been very supportive, my CPN has made it clear that if I begin to self harm as I have done before I will have to have some sort of stepped up treatment - probably an admission.

Keep trying to perk up and snap out of it. I have lovely things planned with my friends but everything feels so hollow and false and fake and pointless.

Not sure why I am posting, just for some support I think.

[StNickHasHisXmasTeakozyOn]

Excellent stuff fluffy. susanann is right, it's ok to feel scared. It's not nice, I admit, but stick with your new ADs and don't forget you can get support on MN. As Winston Churchill said, "keep buggering on". :)