It's nearly Christmas again and I suddenly realised I have hardly any detailed recollection of the past year. I can remember last Christmas like it was yesterday but not the last month or two. I actually had to look through my photos and facebook timeline to remind myself of the details of the past year...
I am definitely depressed now and I am not sure how long it has been creeping up. I am going to ask GP for a prescription now as counselling is not working for me since I am talking things through and it makes no real differnce. I KNOW I should be forcing myself to get out to toddler group etc and I do make myself do stuff but I still just sit there in my own little world with my mind racing talking to myself in my head until I realise "Oh! Time to go!" and then the rest of the day is a blur...
I just seem to be making it through to the end of each day the DS2 is a shit sleeper so he is up every night and I can't remember the last full night's sleep I had or last time I got a nap to catch up.
I didn't mean to bang on - I seem to be locked in my own little world. Everything is so foggy and dislocated like I am out of touch with reality but I still do the small talk with Mums at nursery when we are getting their jackets off/on shoes changed then I just go home and it's a blur til pick up time when I go collect DS1 from nursery with DS2 in the buggy.
Sometimes I will get somewhere then be like "How did we get here?" but I remember getting our shoes on and everything it's just like it is autopilot.
LIKE NOW!! I have just looked at the clock and shit! We are late for nursery! Have to go but I hope someone can help :(