looking back i think i have been depressed for a long long time - but just kept putting it to the back of my head and tried to cope best i can, but of late i have had illness after illness, i am now so low i cant cant really go any lower i am finding it so hard to cope
I have never liked myself very much, low self esteem and think everyone i meet also doesnt like me!! ive had this from a very young age, but as ive got older i have always ended up with very controlling partners who also told me/tells me im stupid useless ect. my husband doesn't have a lot of interest in anything i want to do, in fact tries to stop me from doing most things i want to do. he doesnt listen to anything that may have happened to me in the day that i find exciting, so i dont tell him anything now. im just hear as a servant to him and the kids. i have no identity. most of my thoughts are negative.
anyway over the years ive got lower and lower now to the point i cant function. i suppose i knew this day would come, that i would wear myself down. so the doctor has suggested fluoxetine for 6 months. i said i would give them a go.
Good or bad idea??? any advise from you lovely guys xxxx