Cilalopram...

[YommyMommy]

I can only handle positive stories right now please :)

I have started on 10mg today for anxiety and depression. I'm do relived to b getting some help and looking forward to feeling like myself...I know it won't work over night but would love to hear success stories!

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Thanks YM. I have a few left over from last time. I think I'll make an appointment with the GP anyway. xx

Glad you're ok BOE.

How's everyone doing? I've gone back on the meds tonight as can't shift the symptoms. They're too debilitating. I tend to get like this when I get too much stress. Oh well never mind eh?

Anyone mind if I join in?

I've just started taking 10mgs again today because I'm a bit of a train wreck tbh.

Worst part is how I feel towards my children, so short tempered and I even cried at them this morning, DH asked me if I had been taking the tablets the GP had given me in September and I admitted I had stopped taking them because I felt sick.

I have that constant feeling of impending doom, tight chest, knotty stomach and short of breath.

I can only sleep if taking sleeping tablets and I've lost soo much weight nothing fits me and I look gaunt and ill cause I'm just under 8 stone with no appetite at all.

Not a positive post for you yommy but I am trying and hopeful and will book into see the GP again soon, I'm also working with 3 DC in school so no chance of crawling into bed and giving up

Hi Blue sorry to hear you're struggling and with so much to cope with too.

Your post is positive in regards to citalopram, you know they help and are back on them. I personally think they're quite miraculous. I know once mine kick in again I'll cope really well with my stress.

So sorry about your sleep problem, will citalopram help with this? Is there a trigger for your anxiety? Have you had any therapy e.g. CBT?

I hope you start to feel better soon chick, and welcome to the group

Thanks mama posting does help although this is the first time I've mentioned it on MN.

My anxiety kicked in last June when I returned to work after 3 years at home with my girls, I honestly feel like any minute something awful will happen. Driving is a nightmare, I was physically shaking and sweating driving home tonight and kept thinking I was about to flip the car!

I loved your link to the breathing and focusing technique, I had CBT many years ago and I suppose it's time to think about some techniques now.

I'm a really shit mum ATM, I honestly don't enjoy life at all and today my mums sw called to say they were planning to section my mum under a vulnerable adult clause, I haven't seen her for years cause she won't let me help her and I'm so scared I will end up the same way

You aren't a shit mum, you wouldn't even say that if you were. Bad parents don't care enough to mention it. We all feel guilty, especially those of us going through MH issues. I feel guilty every day and my dss are older, it never goes. Just different reasons to feel it. I think a lot of us with MH issues can be a bit hyper sensitive anyway, so we feel things more? I'm not saying we care more, we just feel so many emotions. IMO anyway.

I'm sorry to hear about your mum. What was your childhood like? This is more likely why you feel worried about ending up like this, what you've experienced will affect your thoughts. I'm betting you won't end up like your mum. Have you voiced these fears with your GP?

Yes my breathing and focusing is good except when it doesn't work. Hence me going back on the meds. I'm not even a nervous person, there's something in me that kicks in and I get PA symptoms? It's so strange?

Well I'm off to wash the supper pots and then bedtime for me. Take care and keep posting.

Morning Ladies,

Curious I hope the meds Start working for you really quickly! Did ur GP give you then no problem? I am going back to GP today to have mine reviewed. I was in for my Op on Tuesday and an now feeling fully recovered from that. Was a bit sore when I woke up after, but other than that been fine.

Blue sorry to hear ur having such a crap time right now! Hopefully the meds will start working for you really quickly! And curious is right, you are not a crap mum, the fact that u care proves that! X x

Thanks for your kind words, finished work but was a struggle so silly because I could do my job with my eyes shut but I have this awful feeling and tight chest, so frustrating!

Glad you're feeling better yommy and hoping everyone has had an easy day.

Thanks YM and so happy the op went well :) x

Blue I have the tight chest it's hard to shift isn't it? Also feels like a ball in my stomach? It's going now with the meds, kicked in quick but I've been on and off them a lot so could be why? Keep posting on here for support chick x

I'm sure the ball in the stomach is what suppresses the appetite.
Day 2 for me and feelings not eased, my rant and tears yesterday hit home with the family as they have all put their school things away and the oldest 2 made pasta for dinner which helps because I'm exhausted.

I still eat

Well done dcs for pulling rank. It'll get easier and if it doesn't go back to your GP.

Morning Ladies,

How is everyone doing? My acute anxiety is still hanging over me I def think I need my meds upped. Although they must b working to some extent as the ball of anxiety is no longer in my tummy. But it's still just so exhausting.

My boys stayed out last night so me n hubby just has a quiet night in with Chinese. I'm still lying in bed, but planning on getting up n having a clear out. We are literally running out of space in the house!

I had my first proper session with my counsellor yesterday, but I don't think it help at all! I'm just going to wait n see the CPN on the 26th November.

Hope everyone is having a nice weekend! X x

I've only just got up! The DC have been great and have been making me birthday cards for tomorrow.

I also plan on having a clear out of the wardrobes today if I manage to move my bum of the sofa

Sorry your session didn't go well, I can imagine counselling to be very draining. I spoke to a collegue yesterday because I'm getting my knickers in a knot about driving to and from work, I keep having images of being involved in a massive car accident and he suggested hypnotherapy so I'm looking into it.

Still don't feel much better although not as sweaty and shaky, hoping for a quiet weekend still lots of washing and tidying to do sigh.

It's nice to have a relaxed morning isn't it? How old are ur DC? I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow!

I really need to clear out toys as there is no an ounce of space for Santa to bring another thing!!

I have just stripped their beds so that's one thing off the list :) taking it in small bite size portions! Looking forward to snuggling with boys later n watching you've been framed...it's a family fav

The counsellor wasn't too draining, but just wasn't able to offer me anything I didn't already know!

Well now that I had my portage for breakfast I better get started on the house good luck for a good day blue x x

Hi all,

Sorry your anxiety is high YM but glad there's some improvement. It's the pits isn't it?

Good luck with your clearouts YM and Blue. I have lots of decluttering to do, my boys are 12 and 15 and growing fast. DS1 is around 6ft and ds2 is almost my height, 5' 8". Plus like you say we need to make room for Christmas although my 2 mainly like games although DS2 still plays with hundreds of action figures and needs no more of those!

It's day 4 for me back on cit. I'll take it later. I feel really crappy and hope it's just the meds kicking in? They've taken away some of the anxiety but I still feel bad. I'm speaking to my GP on Monday, she's ringing me. Hopefully she'll have some ideas on what to do? I'm on a wheel of going on cit and coming off then on again. It seems after a couple of months the panic attacks come back with a vengeance? No idea why, just out of the blue. Usually triggered by stress but even so they do seem to just come on?

I did yoga yesterday and that helped a lot as distracted me plus the breathing helped the tension in my chest. I use this dvd, it's so easy to follow.

Forgot to say I got more on my plate yesterday. DS1's been for blood tests as he's tired all the time, been going on for ages. We got a letter saying his blood sugar is slightly raised so he needs another blood test. I'm worried but trying to keep things into perspective. He's cutting down on sugary things straight away which is good.

Have a good weekend everyone chat soon x

Yeah curious it really is the pits!! I really hate feeling this shite!!

My toy room is cleared. I am going to have some lunch - although still not much of an appetite after that I will either fill my black bin or drive to the skip!

My hubby has gone out for the day so have peace n quiet!

Sorry to hear about DS curious! It's probably nothing to worry about though. If he has a high sugar diets then he will b likely to feel tired as suger goes out of system quickly. I better get a move on...still to have a shower ah lazy Saturday's rock

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enjoy your lazy Saturday YM Dp's gone to visit him mum and step mum he'll be back soon though. We're having a lazy weekend. Dss are at their dads.

xx

Hi ladies,

How is everyone? I'm so flipping tired!! Getting pretty sick of feeling like this...argh!!!

Anyone watching the jungle?? I'll b addicted for next 3 weeks now :) x x

Hi YM,
I'm not too bad. GP rang and has agreed I can be on the citalopram. She wants to see me in 2 weeks. I'm trying to rest as feel whacked out too. I didn't sleep well last night.
Yes I'm watching the jungle and will be addicted too. DS2 has been waiting impatiently for it. Helen Flanagan has panic attacks am amazed she's gone in. She seems a nervous wreck though so must have a lot of phobias too?
xx

That's interesting to know about Helen, I would go into the jungle though! Would you not?? for the past few years I have said I would let anxiety get in my road. I used to b petrified of getting on a plane after DS1 was born, but in the past few years I've flown to Dominican, turkey and even flew down to England on my own with boys major achievement!

I've been out and about today and so am feeling quite good compared to how I was feeling this morning.

Hopefully this mood lasts the rest of the night!

How have you been feeling other than tired today curious! I really hate how tired this can make you feel! It's almost debilitating at times. Hope you have a nice restful afternoon. I need to go get DS1 from school! It's been wet and dull ALL day here do hoping I can leave DS2 with daddy n go on my own...knowing DS2 that's almost impossible he's such a mummies boy!

Take cars n speak soon misses x x

Hi day 13 for me today and still no improvement so they've increased to 20 mg think I'll start tomorrow.
Here's hoping we have a good week!

I'm still on 10 Brices, have had slight improvement but not as much as I thought!! I'm back at work on Thursday and my hubby is away again a week today so that will b the real tester for me

Fingers crossed we all have a good week! x x

Hi all, can I join you?

Signed off with anxiety and starting 20mg tonight.

I've been under pressure for nearly 2 years now and it is taking its toll. The tablets won't take this away, but I am hoping that they will help me settle down. Awful IBS is making it hard for me to function.

Hi YM and Brices,
I don't think I'd go in the jungle, not that any of the tasks would worry me but I have panic disorder so feeling trapped isn't good. Mind you if Eric Bristow can take in his baccy then I could take my meds? :D
I'm feeling a bit better now. Dp's been looking after me. He's back to work tonight, he works permanent nights. I can sleep ok without him.
As for the meds I've got a heavy head at the moment, still got a tight chest. Just had a sharp headache too which wasn't nice. Only been on it a few days so will persevere.
Wow Brices that's flown over! You'll feel better when you're on 20mg. 10mg is the usual starting dose but I've been on mine a few times so my GP thinks straight onto 20 is ok. Didn't tell her I'd already started them
I hope you'll feel ok when dh is back at work YM? Can you not ask your Gp to up your meds? Maybe you could chat on the phone? Even 15mg may help?
Well dinner's been easy tonight which is good. I'd batch cooked some veggie shepherd's pie last week so just had that and have roasted some sprouts. The topping is sweet potato, turnip from my allotment :) and mashed potato. We'll see how ds2 fares with that? DS1 will eat it ok.
Take care all chat soon xx

Hello all. Haven't said hi for a while. I started on 20mg, I don't think 10mg was mentioned.

Been off them since beginning of October, but I think the anxiety is rearing it's head again. Got GP appointment Wednesday but not sure what I want to do really.