Hello,
I don't often post in this topic, I like to believe I can keep a handle on my problem without help. But I do need help.
I have Emetophobia. Its a fear of vomiting. I have specific fear of others vomiting, I hate vomiting myself but its worse when others do it, specifically my ds who is 2 on Thursday.
I've tried EVERYTHING to rid myself of this phobia. I've had exposure therapy, CBT, hypnotherapy .. everything. I still have it, and it seems to be getting worse. And recently, cos all the kids are back at school I guess, its become 'that time of year' when its going round and the Internet is full of it. Posts on Mumsnet, posts on Facebook, I can't get away from it. My ds has had a dodgy tum this weekend and last night he woke up gagging, and I sat on the stairs outside the bedroom door while my dh comforted him. That should be me. I'm his mummy.
He goes to a baby music group on Wednesdays which he loves, and this Weds I don't want to take him in case he catches a bug. But he loves it so. How can I not let this horrendous phobia ruin my son's childhood? I don't know what else to do.
I hate myself for this. I'm going to hate it even more when he starts nursery.
What steps should I take to help myself? Feel like I've lost my way with it at the moment.