The story about the school girl running off with her teacher is really messing with my head. I imagine there are lots of women who it's a bit 'close to home' for.
I had a teacher at school who I was very close to. He never really did anything but did overstep the mark a few times. He taught me for 5 years between 13-18. I used to wonder if he would ever ask me out when I left school and came to my own conclusion that he probably wouldn't. I mean, that was such a crazy idea, he was much, much older.
I never tested the theory. I got myself a boyfriend and his behaviour towards me changed and he became really cold for a while. I left and went to college, we kept in touch via letter. Whenever I was home for the holidays he would find excuses to come and see me wherever I was working. I still wondered what his feelings were and never asked.
About 14 years later, just before I got married, he told me he wanted to be more than friends and indicated he'd always felt that way. Told me he loved me. I was pretty devastated that neither of us had ever said anything about it at the time.
To be honest, I don't think the relationship would have lasted. I don't know because we didn't test it. He's still in my life as a friend and I'm married and have children. I don't want to be with him at all, I just wish I'd had the courage to trust my feelings when I was 16.
This story in the press is really upsetting me. I can't think of anything else. After all these years, he still has some sort of hold on me and I think if I'd have tested the relationship out, it would have fizzled out and I'd have been free of him. I really like him as a person. He never married.
Confused, really.
Anyone have any words of wisdom? Any perspective on what happened? Be nice, I'm really feeling wobbly.