Finances finally sorted out in divorce procedure.
I now have a lump sum of money and a nominal sum for maintenance that truly is an insult! - which replaces the fact that I have had to divorce my husband (he left me but forced me to divorce him), lose my home, rehome my animals, lose lots of my friends for various reasons, move away from an area that I love etc etc.
It is a sum of money that I know I should be grateful about - a lot of people would only dream about having that much - even me! (believe me it isnt much) but in relation to the things I have lost I would rather give it away as it means so little to me - I can't do that as I have to use it now to survive in rented accommodation and bring up my children, but I am so BL""DY DEPRESSED about it! He came away far better off than me in my opinion even though I gained most of the capital! Maybe that doesn't help?!
I know no-one can do anything for me really - I suppose I just want to offload some of the depression! :(