How do I sort out this battle in my head?

[CatsInChaos]

I feel like there are two sides to what is going on in my head:

The sensible side that knows what I need to do and
The "out of control unmotivated side"

My house is a complete tip at the mo and I feel it is almost too hard to get on top of it all.
I know some of you might say "sod the house" but I feel that is one of the things I am responsible for and if I can't keep it organised/clean enough then I am failing!
For example if I don't wash up - we won't have any clean cups/plates etc so then I don't feel motivated to cook cause the kitchen is a mess and everything snowballs.

Same goes for laundry - if I can't get motivated to do it we will no doubt run out of clean clothes.

I also have a battle going on (in my head) about whether to take my meds.
My sensible side says I need them to get better but some days the "not sensible" side wins and I miss out days.

How the hell do I sort myself out?

I can relate to this Cats. I could have written this a year ago. I take Sertraline & it has helped to relax that nagging, negative side. I still struggle with keeping on top of the chores but I'm actually alot better at managing them now I'm calmer.

I used to start ten jobs & finish none. Now I do one at a time. I do concentrate mostly on the kitchen & washing.

Have you ever tried CBT? This really helped me to challenge my negative thoughts.