Have posted in sleep but on the advice of another mnetter, have decided to repost here.
Am currently into my 6 month off work with anxiety/depression and taking 20/40mg citalopram. Have attended a sickness monitoring meeting and am due to attend a second one with a view to phased return. New boss came to work in January and has systematically bullied every old member of staff resulting in them all leaving; I am the only one left but found it intolerable hence on sick leave. For 18yrs I have always been assessed as being excellent at my job, have mentored countless others and indeed been the acting boss for substantial lengths of time before her appointment. I have exactly the same qualifications as her, but admit my performance did slowly decline due to her bullying and constant undermining of me ( all staff commented and asked why she had singled me out to be such a bitch to). She has a friend waiting in the wings to take my place from another company and at the very onset of taking charge, asked which union I was in (sign of things to come)?
As the next meeting / time to return nears, I can't help but feel panicky and unable to rest/sleep/think rationally. Some days I worry so much I can't eat and actually feel like collapsing / vomitting. Have tried can't but with no effect. Have applied for other jobs but as she has to be my referee not much hope. All have commented I am overqualified and cannotunderstand why I am searching employment on the same level I am currently at.
I also have a ds who has not been in education since feb and has been to 3 dufferent schools with little syccess due to sns
who is a constant worry (he is only 8)!
I need help!
I feel my life is a complete mess and don't know where to turn!