I started a new job about a month ago. I was very lucky to get the job as I know there were a huge number of applicants for it, it's a minimum wage job but to me it's the first rung on the ladder IYSWIM.
To keep it slightly vague, I work in a company that deals with medical supplies, and I have to teach patients to use these supplies properly with the utmost hygiene. After this they sign a sheet to say they've been shown everything and understood all the care I've taught them etc and they get a guide book to take home that reiterates everything I said.
Yesterday I had a patient and went through it all with them, it was fine and they went with their book. But I'm convinced that when I first started speaking to them I didn't ask them to wash their hands, like I do with every patient, obviously because it's important. I flipped back through the book and made sure I covered everything before they left, I must have done cos I agreed I'd covered it all. But later on in the night I just kept thinking all night I didn't tell them and I'm going to be in so much trouble when they get an infection or something because of me, and I still think it now.
I do this all the time in jobs, I go home and over analyse every single thing I've done/not done in the day and convince myself I've not done really important everyday things, and end up getting really stressed and upset. I really don't want to mess this up and I don't know how I feel now, I'm still really scared about the patient I had yesterday even though I'm sure it's fine, and I'm fed up for keep doing this to myself.
I've been to the doctor and I've had antidepressants before but they didn't make a jot of difference, and the one counselling place round here won't speak to me because I missed an appointment due to them telling me it was on the wrong day! :(