stopped taking antidepressants.

[liverLadyLass]

and for a while now,
and im starting to see things differently and it's making sence,
I feel with the ad's my feelings and thoughts have been kept in a place were they we're never up or down and because of that the problem has never went away but only masked? that the counciling was not 100% affective because the real emotions and thoughts were there but not properly there? and my problem was not delt with because of this,
im thinking of going back to counciling but as me, not a medicated num person,
has anyone else felt this way before? and have you gone back to counciling with ad's?
what was your outcome, I guess I'm scared that I'll become worse off mentally but feel I need to do this to get bk to the person I was before it happened,
sorry if this makes no sence,
thanks for reading.

I do know what you mean. The ADs are useful for getting you up from the floor so to speak as otherwise you wouldn't go to counselling. You would probably feel you were quite alright and didn't need it.

However ADs definitely do numb you. I quite liked being numb for a while. It was like being on a cushion and floating over everything but yes trying to get access to my real feelings was really difficult. Whenever my doctor asked me how I was I found it hard to tell her. I knew that deep down I was really sad but couldn't talk or cry.