hellhasnofurylikeahungrywoman ·
17/08/2012 23:24
I have emetophobia and have had fairly successful CBT for it but recently it's coming back.
I know my trigger, my DD. I've always been phobic but watching DD in a near death situation in an ambulance many years ago means I link my phobia to her more strongly. It's ridiculous, I'm ridiculous because she's 22 now and it happened when she was 7. My phobia is heightened now because we're off abroad tomorrow. I associate abroad with an increased risk of sickness. God. I am pathetic. I think things are worse because I feel guilty about leaving DS behind (again stupid, he's an adult and it's his decision to stay) and I am due to start a new job when we get back. I loved my old job but a bullying boss meant I had to leave for my own mental health.
I don't even know why I am posting this, it's completely irrational but I suppose that's the thing with phobias; they are irrational.