think im depressed :(

[ellliebelle]

I have 2 beautiful children and am pregnant with our 3rd (not a planned pregnancy and dh doesnt seem to be responding well to it ) things with me and dh are not good and i know neither of us are happy with our relationship at the moment.

For a good couple of weeks unless i have had something planned for a day i have found myself feeling very bored and even though ive felt like this i have not found the motivation to get up and do something to stop the boredem

Right now i am laid in bed not even dressed yet, the dd's are playing lovely upstairs yet i know i should be playing with them. I feel sooo guilty for just laying here yet even that guilt isnt motivation enough for me to get up and dressed :(. Last night the dd's had toast and fruit at tea time because i couldnt be bothered cooking dinner. I am disgusted in myself yet it made no difference i still didnt cook :(

i just dont know what to do to sort myself out i want to tell myself to snap out of it but it doesnt seem to be that easy

First, {hugs}

Second, get yourself out. Talk to a friend. Are any family about that may be sympathetic?

Third, don't be afraid to go to a Doctor.

From what you have posted, you have no reason to be disgusted with yourself. You have recognised that you think you may be depressed. Your DCs can play alone, it's good for them. Be kind to yourself but seek company or help.

Oh, and sometimes my DCs have cereal for tea, so I think that beats toast and fruit

Thank you for your kind words made me smile :) since posting i have managed ro get dressed and i tidied the bedroom going to do the dd's some lunch then get them in the garden i think.

I dont really know who id talk to or what iwould say :( everything i feel sounds so trivial and i feel there is no real reason to feel this way i have beautiful well behaved children a dh that loves me (we are having a rough patch but i know he still cares) we have a nice home i enjoy my work we have a holiday to look forward tofnancially we are in the best position we have been in since we met 6 years ago i just dont understand why im so down and feel family and friends would take this view point too :(

Having a nice life doesn't mean you can't be depressed. I had a nice life, but I still got very down. Hormones, brain chemistry, sometimes you have no control over this type of stuff and it's unexplainable.

Unfortunately, family and friends will probably take the view point you mention. Just remember to look after yourself. Don't close yourself off to ideas of therapy, medication (what you can safely take considering your pregnancy).

I've got a long a complicated back story that made me depressed. I resisted medication for years. It was a huge mistake. But, what was right for me, is not right for everybody.

Make informed choices. That's as much as you can do for now. I'm glad you are feeling a little better than earlier.