I dont know what Im looking for by writing this on here but I think I need help. Ive been on Fluxoterine (sp) 40mg since Oct 11. It really helped with my PND in the sense that I could go about daily life again when all i was doing was staying in the house with DD as I was scared something would happen to her, or people would judge me with her etc.
Over the past couple of months I feel different again, like Ive gone back to the begining. I dont want to talk to anyone, I force myself to talk to my family, my jaw hurts from being clenched all the time. I feel numb, but angry and scared and alone, but I want to be alone because its easier to handle. I just dont know. I go from this to feeling happy, almost too happy I think when I come back down, like I couldnt give less of a damn.
The last time I was at my GP I told them that I thought that the depression was lifting but that the anxeity is still there (if not worse) and she gave me some Miterzpine (sp) to take in the nights as Sertaline (sp) doenst work well with me and she was reclutent to move me from Fluxotine as I am doing so well on it, but I couldnt take these without turning into a zombie, so I only took two doses and even then it took a week for me to stoop feeling so out of it.
I think that I told my GP the depression was lifting as I was in a happy mood that day, the problem is that I just panic and start crying when im in there if Im feeling down so I just dont know how to tell them this and that I feel my meds just arent working at the moment.
Im guess im looking for help on how to explain this all to my GP again tomorrow, without her thinking that Im making it up because a couple of weeks ago I said I felt it was lifting, and I guess im just panicing about it all.