anyone else who cant seem to talk?

[hotheels]

I don't mean physical talking I mean, small talk? I jst have an empty head with nothing to say I feel awkward and irritable. Have been on sertraline for 10 days and tbh my mood is worse now than when I first started taking them. I cannot think clearly or make any kind of decisions. Am tired all the time but struggling to find the motivation to go to bed. I take amitriptyline 50mg before bed for burning pain (ms) and sertraline 50mg in the morning. I am losing it I think.

The constant daily routine. It goes on and on I can see my life like this forever and it scares me. No it terrifies me. Day in day out doing the same thing all the fucking time. Why do I feel like this? It's too much.

I find small talk hard at the moment, feel like I have nothing to say. It is rubbish isn't it?

Sometimes when I find going to bed hard I make a cosy spot on the sofa and put PJs on and rest there. Or watch a film in bed and fall asleep watching it.

Can you speak to your GP or CMHT who started your medication for support.

I have always been so strong, very independent and would never accept help but now I jst feel panic when I know I have to face another day on my own with the kids. Dh leaves the house at 7:15 so its a long day alone with them. I went to a friends today for coffee and couldn't stay long as I couldn't say much. It's so hard to explain I feel as though I'm on a merry go round in my head, like I am trapped in there like I'm in some kind of trance and I am trying so hard to get out of it. But I havent got the strength anymore. I can't fight any longer. I jst want to sleep and not wake up.