Am I depressed or is this just school-holiday stress?

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Hi, have NC as I feel I'm a bit recognisable under my usual nn & this is very raw feeling and want to ensure privacy.

I have been swithering over going to my GP, am a bit worried that my depression is returning/getting worse. I'm on A/D's, have been for years but this holidays my DP has been working very long hours & I just feel at the end of my tether most of the time with DS.

Have been on the verge of tears probably every other day, have thoughts of running away/hurting myself in some way which make me well-up (I wouldn't, it just comes into my head, its a familiar feeling but I haven't felt this way for a long time). I feel awful typing this, I keep hoping it will just go away or improve. I think I know really that I need to see my GP about this.

Any advice would be appreciated.

Go to see your GP, that's not just normal summer holiday stresses. Hope the GP can suggest something, do you have much real life support?

Thanks for reply, I do have some really good friends, a couple know a little about my past struggles with depression but they do have a lot on their plate already with family/work stresses. My family are close but I've had breakdown in the past & wouldn't want to seriously worry them.

But, I did have a bit of PND after birth of DS and was able to be open and talk to others about that, I just worry because I think of my more severe depression 'coming back' and it being more scary & less easy to confide in people about.

I think I do need to see GP, even just to speak about it.