This is not fair

[NASWM]

DS2 is due to go in to hospital tomorrow for a major operation on his hand. But he has been awake in night with temperature of 38.6 and has a nasty cough. they wont do the op if isn't totally fit. We have been working towards this day for 20 months.

I am SO throughly fed up. Everything we try to do goes wrong. I cant be bothered to list everything here. Even getting to the point of being able to take DS2 to hospital tomorrow has been a logistical nightmare and now he may not be fit enough for the surgery.

I dond thnk I've have ever said this before but IT IS NOT FAIR. I want to scream and run away. Or go back to bed and wake up from this horrible dream and discover that my life has all been a crappy book I've been reading. :( :( :(

Iknow the feeling, its horrible when nothing seems to got right. I think everyone from time to time has spates were nothing seems to go right. Or maybe try and look at the good things that are going on in your life.
Hope this helps
If you have to cancel your childs operation how long will you have to wait.

That's the trouble red, I cant think of anything good happening at the moment. The good thing was this operation.

Are you feeling any better NASWM

NASWM, has anyone offered you any support in all of this? Sounds like you could use some

Hi you two. Well, the op DID go ahead. And he is now home and doing well. It will be some time before we know how successful it was.

I am okay at the moment. But i go up and down. I know from the past that after a spell in hospital I hit a low point afterwards so I am expecting that soon. I have a good friend, who I try not to burden with evertyhing, and I am trying to have counselling but it's hard getting there. Wish I could just hand my life over to someone else for a few days though to have a break sometimes.

NASWM, so glad to hear it went ok.

You do need some support, though. Has no one at the hospital offered you any? Do you have parents/ inlaws nearby?

Hi Carla

My mum is fairly close by and has been v helpful looking after DS1, but she works so there is only so much she can do. We dont 'talk' about things like this though, not 'deep' things, the relationship is not on that level, IYKWIM. My MIL tries to help out, but is often more of a hindrance than a help. I dont mean that to be ungrateful though.

I feel v lonely this evening. I dont just want to ring up a friend and say hi and then whinge and moan about everything though.

Thanks for checking on me. Will be good when I can get my counselling going, but that will be a while yet...