I have been struggling with increasing anxiety. It focuses on what people think of me and things I have said. At the end of the day I run the days conversations and interactions through my mind and regret things I've said or done. I worry that I've looked stupid or that people will think badly or less of me. I also worry about decisions I've made at work. Outwardly I appear to others very confidently and I am outgoing. I work in a large team who don't get together as a group very often, I have become very established and well known. Yet underneath this I am plagued with crippling feelings of doubt and anxiety. I recently had to do an important assessment at work and another member of the team has not been questioning me, but the quality of the people I assessed. I feel like my inability is going to be uncovered and exposed for all to see. It makes me feel close to tears and at times consumes my thoughts. I don't know what to do. Maybe I feel like this because these feelings are justified.
I am sorry this is a ramble I wanted to get all my thoughts out. Ive reached the point where I really need help. I want to enjoy my life again.