I finally admitted that i've got PND

[jofeb04]

I was taking St Johns Wart because of the sypmtoms i was feeling, but the contraceptive i use can effect it. I went to the doctors about 2weeks ago, and finally admitted that i've got PND and has done since my dd was born.
I don't have any problems towards my dc, love them both dearly, but its towards myself, feeling useless etc. Im often tearful. ive been giving the tablets, but am pritty poor remembering them (must get better), but feel like a wieghts been lifted off myself.
Im also meeting my HV (who i get on with really well),as she thinks we may know whats caused it (severe SPD, even now, and two tramatic pregnancies and births) later this week.

Hey, if you feel like a weight's lifted, then you must be right on the money. Hope all goes well from now on.xxP

well done you.you may find now you have spoke to someone about it you start to turn a corner.i broke down in my hv office one day,there were tears,confessions and lots of talking. i also felt like you, a feeling of been a useless mummy. my problems relate to my chilhood. i have been reffered to see a councillor but just addmitting i felt this way gave me a new prespective on life. good luck and i hope you will soon be back on the right road x

You've taken the most important step, recognising that you have pnd. I was teary, feeling useless after ds2 was born, angry, lacking support. I was offered ADs and counselling - the counselling helped regarding two difficult births and recognising what caused it 'cos then i could talk about/do something about it. Much better now and just had ds3 with no sign of pnd this time. I'm sure you will feel better as each week passes now - good luck.x

millaH
did u take ADs as i refused the offer due to personal reasons.i accepted the councilling but still waiting for appointment!hope it helps and glad to hear u had another baby without effects as this is was a worry to me when me and my DH decide to have another. x

I'm glad you feel the pressure's off, jofe. I have PND, too. This is the second time for me. Hope you start feeling better soon. Feel free to vent away! I do.

how is everyone? ((((((((hugs))))))))

Hiya all,
Thanks for all your replies.
I saw the HV last Thursday, she was at the house for over a hour, talking about all sorts! My biggest problem is that if i have a good day I seem to forget to take my tablet but if i have a bad day, i remember!!
Looking back, i think i probably suffered with it with my ds (again, bad preg and birth etc) but i didnt admit it. Admitting the problem is the best thing i believe i could do, talking all my feelings over to the HV (and my DH who does everything for me when hes off work) has done me really good.
Im still having bad days, obviously, but im now trying to remember positive thoughts about why im upset. For example, (and this sounds really really stupid to some of you), Ivehad SPD for months now, (a year in April), but because of the poin, ive got an excuse not to do the housework etc!!
Hope your all ok

good for you jofeb! (((((hugs))))))
and why on earth should it sound stupid?!

i'm bumping cos i'm bored at the moment - i've got jousework to do nut don't feel like doing it

i meant housework

Hi jo glad you feel better for opening up to HV. I've recently been in touch with my HV and they're so much more help than gps. Doesn't sound silly at all re. SPD pain. Your story sounds so like mine, SPD both pregnancies plus other difficulties. No wonder we're up the wall! How bad is your SPD pain? Mine cleared up after a couple of moths but has reappeared in recent weeks, not debilitating but still limiting. Don't even realise I'm walking funny/compenasting etc , have recently 'given in' to PND having told myself for a long time that I was just being useless and selfish and a bad mother, i'm sure it's result of SPD problems Would love to chat!

Hiya,
Thanks all for replying to my thread. Havent really had much time to myself recently to get online. My SPD is still pritty bad, walking is ok, but only for about 20minutes, but standing still is really painful still. Im finding all mu muscle has gone from my legs, back etc, so generally aching all day long!!
Hell, no wonder ive got pnd! Frumspter, hows your SPD, how long have you had it for?
Fransmum, thx for bumpin it up, I want all of us sufferes to beable to talk openly about how we are feeling.
Take care,
Jo

jofeb, glad to hear things are getting better. Do you still forget to take your tablets? If so, and you have a mobile phone, set an alarm on your phone to remind you to take them. I use mine to help me remember to take folic acid every day and it really helps.

Thats an excelent idea. To be honest, Im c**p with my tablets, always have been no matter what they're for. Im going to try that with my mobile and also my handheld comp! Cheers Miaou

Great idea re. mobile! Not been here for a while, feeling pretty terrible since 'giving in' to the PND but am relieved to have talked not just to health people but family and friends now. Have been referred to PND counselling, one session so far but v promising. Funnily enough my SPD pain has reduced again, my doctor told me it can flair up under stress/ with depression etc. Yours sounds much worse, though, Jofeb04. You are so strong! Are you in touch with the Pelvic Partnership? Hope you are getting all the right support. x