I just cant take anymore, feel like running away.

[Crawling]

2 1/2years ago life was fine I had suffered with ill mental health alot but I had been fine for ages, Then I had a major pychotic mixed episode and believed my partner was a rapist, that I was speaking with god and believing I was his angel of darkness having 3 way conversations with myself and just completly off the rails kept trying to run outside naked one minute then trying to repetedly stab myself the next .

I was told I had bipolar type 1. I had a baby that I caught for while on that episode and now everything is going wrong I recently had a appaling depressive episode and I am just coming out of it and now my mum is having heart trouble, my son is misbehaving at school . My dd is being referreed by her speech therapist to rule out the possibility of autism, I have had bleeding after sex and am being reffered for that DD2 is going to have blood taken because she keeps having temperatures of 40 plus.

I just keep waiting to wake up and discover this is just a bad dream I feel like I cant take anymore.

Crawling,I feel for you.You have so much going on.
Your mum,is she seeing the doctor?
son,what do the teachers suggest?
DD,that one is a wait and see.All may be well with that.Do you have to wait long for the appointment?
Yourself bleeding,dont know anything about this.Another wait.Waiting is horrid.
DD2,hope that turns out ok.Imagine she is going to have the blood taken soon,and you will find out soon on that.
Do you have people in RL who you can also share all this with?

My mum is having test done to find out why her heart is skipping beats. She is only 44 she had me at 19 and I had my oldest at 17.

My ds teacher told me she has run out of ideas, I talked with him and he said another boy made him moon the teacher. The teachers are aware this boy is making him do things and keep trying and failing to keep them apart.

I dont know how long we need to wait yet she has seen the doctor before the doctor reccomended a helper for school when she starts in September.

DD2 is going for tests Friday.

I only really talk to my partner, I am a very closed person ad dont like people to know how I feel. Thank you for replying it heps to get it out.

skipping heart beats are not always serious.Im not saying your mums are not,but I do believe many people have this and it can sometimes be minor.

Could the teacher put your ds and the other boy in different classes?

Is DD1 likely to get a school helper.
Is that what you would like for her at this stage.

Glad DD2 is getting tested.Hope that turns out ok too.
And glad you have your partner to talk to.

I am hoping it is minor . Thank you that makes me feel alot better to now it is sometimes minor

The boy in question is 2 years older than my DS but was put in a lower class, so now I think on it he might be moved up now in September It was the teachers who first informed me that the other boy was picking on DS and saying if he was naughty he would be nice and play with him.

As for DD I have many split and divided views on one hand I feel like they are putting her in a box and writing her off as needing a helper when I would like her to be given a chance and see how she actually copes rather than saying she has this , she wont cope give her a helper. But on the other hand DD does have problems and I am afraid that as the doctor is advising on this I may be putting her under a lot of stress that she wont be able to deal with and may make her problems worse.

Thank you it has helped a lot to discuss this with someone outside of the situation, I feel stronger and better able to cope now and my mind is easier.

I can understand why you have mixed feelings about DD1.I think I would too.
You may want to post about her in the education forum at some point.They seem quite a knowledgeable bunch over there.

Thank you I will do that it might help clear my thoughts up