and feel like all I can do is stand a watch!!! Going through horrific personal experience atm, was abused every way possible by an EXP some years ago, have a DS with him, had court battles to prove his inability to parent, won, kept DS safe, now i am being dragged back through the process....... and he vows to keep doing it until he gets DS OR ruins me.
Its an emotional and financial nightmare!!
Been on anti d's in the past but have come on leaps and bounds and consider myself to be a stronger person. Wham, this weekend it all hit me like a sledgehammer. Totally out of the blue. I feel helpless, I am worrying now about EVERYTHING, crying, chest pains, nightmares you name it. keep chanting "get a grip get a grip" but its not gripping and I am not getting.....even akuna matata isnt working its magic. Both DS's are sick of me rewinding the Lion King!
I feel unable to control it but am trying to desperately trying to dig my (chewed) fingernails in and not let it drag me under.
Help! Do i need to return to the GP and admit defeat?