Mirtazapine AGAIN It's crap isn't it?

[orangeandlemons]

Have been on this shit for 5 weeks 30mg and 2 weeks before 15mg.

It makes me sleep, BUT I feel crap. I feel hostile, indifferent and irritated by my lovely family and keep picking senseless arguments with my DP, because I can . The I hate myself with intense self loathing, like nothing I'veever felt before. This them makes me have really violent self harming thoughts.

I feel bad tempered, pissed off, mardy, glum and flat. However I don't feel depressed (but I don't feel happy either), and have very little anxiety because I care about nothing and no one.

This isn't right is it? I have tried so hard to make this shit work, but I just feel pissed off all the time

I'm just about to report my above reply, it was meant for a different thread.

I will broadly echo what I wrote. Any AD that makes you feel like this is not the one for you. See your GP, explain how you feel and get it changed.

There are lots of different AD's. There is no good reason to put up with this one's side effects. Go back to your GP.

Mirt has worked really well for me and I did feel very irritable at first, however it had settled down by 5 weeks, I agree with above posters I think you need to go back to the doctors ASAP.
MLx

Mirtazapine saved my sanity when I was first on it. Made me sleep and brought me out of a very bad depression very quickly.

I think the problem with anti-depressants is there is no "one size fits all". You have to try different ones and see what works for you. I have tried so many over the years and Mirtazapine was the only one that didn't make me feel numb and spaced out. The only bad thing I got from it was that I put on weight which it is notorious for doing.

I hope you find an antidepressant that works for you!

lt's been giving me horrible nightmares too, awful.

Last night the devil was waiting for me in my mobile. Two nights ago the evil spirit of a woman who had killed her 2 children was trying to take over me. I wake up and am too scared to go back to sleep. It's horrid

Please go to your GP and explain what's happening.