I've come to the point where I can admit things aren't right.
I'm barely sleeping.
I'm having panic attacks.
I'm finding it hard to do anything sometimes.
I'm feeling desperate and so very very sad at things that are going on but I feel like everything is out of my control.
The last few months have been a nightmare. I'm being made homeless with my kids. I've been cut out by my dad. I'm failing at being a parent and at being 'me' but I don't even know who that is really.
I know that given what's been going on is stress is bound to be expected but what do I do about this?
I know I need to see the gp. But I'm scared to take medication. I'm a single parent to 2 and I don't want to be spaced out or anything. But this can't go on.
If I see the doctor, what will they do? I think I need more then just pills. I think I need to solve this not just patch it up.
When you first start the medication does it effect your ability to function? If I tell the doctor how much
I'm struggling will they inform other people like HV or social services? I don't think my kids are in danger. But it's probably not much fun for them right now.
I just want to sleep right now. Just lay down and be left alone.
I know it's not right. I know I need to change it.