hi few of you may recognise my name and know ive recently been (diagnosed if thats the term??) with depression.
there's just some other stuff going on (that ive had for yrs) and was just posting to see if any others get it or similar, i think i have abit of anxiety?
i see some one else mention on another thread that they have trouble taking things in (infomation etc) what caught my eye was that they mentioned when on the phone. i thought i was just abit thick and had bad ears.
I have been to my gp before about my hearing being bad.ive since had a hearing test and it came back good.
if im in a noisy place some one can be talking to me right near my ear but it doesnt go in, the noise around seems to confuse me. If on the phone and the other person is talking but it doesnt stay in my head and i have to ask them to repeat. when i get off the phone i didnt get all the info or forgot? i seem to be trying too hard to concentrate??
Ive always had problems with going out and mingling amongst others, not one to stand in a crowd. but this seems to have got worse in the last week.
I really dont want to go out, dont want no one here - even my dp makes me nervous.
today after taking few deep breathes i took DD over the park, she was sad that DS's are out and we usually join them. this woman had a puppy running so i thought id ask what type of spaniel breed it is. she told me the breed - then i said i used to know some one who had a spaniel as i described what it looked like. woman replied it sounds like a springer, then i couldnt remember what she said the breed was so i said sorry what was it? she told me again. then i mentioned the breed i like describing the size of dog and snout etc (looked similar to hers) then i thought to myself what did she say her breed was? didnt want to ask again so i said i like the small ones think its cavalier. she said oh right with a funny look.
Id realised id repeated myself and that id walked away still not sure what she said wether it was cavalier or king charles. i know it might seem really silly but i got quite worked up over it thinking she must think im loopy then came over all swoony and teary. wanted to go home but didnt want to let DD down. felt better when all people in the park left and i didnt feel eyes on me i could relax. this happens every where i go, with people im familiar with (like neighbours or school run) its not as bad.
sorry its abit of a ramble but i dont know how to get it out right?