What do I say to friend after stupidly sending her a text suggesting that I would happily walk out in front of bus?

[HauntedLittleLunatic]

Having a shit time - recent bereavement, recentish and still raw from seperation with an OW involved. Upset said friend. Had shit and lonely weekend where I bottled it all up because didn't want to burden friend as she was v busy and had a v close family wedding so needed to be happy.

Then I had argument with DCs. Got in the middle of a nasty 3 way text convo/argument between this friend and another.

I stupidly text something like 'well it won't matter cos this time next week I will probably be under a bus'. Whilst I was articulating where I felt like being I wasn't serious about doing anything about it.

I immediately appologised. She knows I would not actually do anything of that nature.

Will see her for the first time since tomorrow. What on earth do I say?

given you've texted back and apologized I'd leave it til you see her face to face tomorrow. honestly, acknowledge it put don't overly dwell on it. stressful circumstances and you over reacted

she's entitled to feel annoyed and hopefully she acknowledges hat and you both move onto other stuff

you reflect upon the trigger (eg the aggro) and work how to react/cope better next time.as inevitably there will be a next time.such is life

Ty.

She knows that she wasn't the straw that broke the camels back so to speak.

I'm just nervous about first meeting and the inquisition/whatever I'm likely to get about my mental health and how I convince her that I'm 'ok' and don't actually need to be put on suicide watch IYSWIM.