feel like Venice; crumbling underneath my mask

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I'm keeping it all together on the outside; keeping up appearances and sure no one knows how I feel. But underneath I am completely crumbling.

I have Seratonin syndrome so can't take anti-depressents, and am waiting for counselling.

I really only break down in private (so my almost grwon-up kids don't know) but today when asked about my long term plans at work, I feel apart.

I've been a single mum for 12 years so have virtually no social life to speak of, and have a tricky relationship with my parents who have never been there when I needed emotional support. I work full-time in quite a demanding job but have lost enthusiasm for almost everything.

I tried exercising as I am very unfit but I gave up after a couple of weeks. And although I'd never do anything I do think how lovely it would be not to have to wake up.

I am off to work abroad for a week next week which will be a good distraction but I'm really not sure how long I can keep things together for and would welcome some support.

Hi just wanted you to know you are not alone

I live with my mask on most days only my DP see's ne at my worst i am currently having treatment and i'm sure someone with more experiance will be along soon just did not want your post to go unanswered x

I really do need some support and advise; please

bump - I can't believe there isn't anyone out there who can help. I have phoned the Samaritans which helped but really had hoped there would be some support here.

Hi sorry you are feeling so low.
It sounds like you have a lot on your plate.
Do you know where you are on the waiting list for counselling? Some of the self help books available in the library are quite good as a starting point while you wait. The Feeling Good Handbook by David Burns is often recommended.
Could you start introducing a couple of little treats for yourself each week. Just small things to give you something to look forward to?
Hope your work trip goes well.

You sound exhausted, to be honest. You sound like there's so much going on and maybe you're very run down too. Can you take a break? How long have you felt like this? Have you spoken to your gp? You're definitely not alone though - there are lots of us here going through similar things. Sometimes I find it helps just to know that.

Where have you tried to get help? Just the GP or have you spoken with a Psychiatrist? I'd not heard of Seratonine Syndrome before, how did you get that diagnosed?

Hope your buisness trip abroad goes well, and offers at least some down time!