whats going on?

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Last week i was invited to go to a family party, ds1 (10) had a really bad cold and was a bit under then weather.
dh was going to be looking after the boys but i did what i have done lots of times before and dedcided i better not go in case anything became of the cold i.e he would be ill etc.
It sounds absolutely ott and it is but every time i get a chance to go out and enjoy myself i just start worrying and end up staying in.

If dh goes out i worry that somedthing will happen and he will be out and /or drunk.
So although i would love to stop worrying and enjoy myself i find that i don't like people to invite me out because then i know a night of worry is looming.
I know this probably doesn't make much sense but i think i am trying to make some sort of sense myself by writing it down.
would you think this is classed as anxiety and would warrant antidepressants.
please help, i can't figure out if i am just a real soft arse or i have a genuine problem.

and now you all think i'm a loony

I think that if it's affecting your quality of life/restricting your daily activities, then it's worth going to GP to discuss. Only you and your GP can diagnose and decide whether medication is appropriate. Have you read any self-help type books?

I have tried alsorts tbh
If i have to go somewhere then i can go but i often get worried and then make my excuses if i can.
I think i put things off all the time because of my own negative thoughts and because i feel safer staying in, i do, even though i don't want to iyswim

if you've got a book shop near you, go in and try and find 'Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway'