How to get ADs

[bananacrepe]

I need ADs - had citalopram a few years ago and it helped. I have come out as severe on all the depression questionnaires and I'm starting to feel quite desperate. I've made an appointment for Friday but I can't wait that long. I can ring on the day and might be able to get one on Wed but that's still ages away. Is there any way I can get them sooner? I can't stand feeling like this any more. I'm trying to sort relationship issues with DH and I think depression is skewing my judgement. I don't know what to do. I need something to make me feel normal fast so I can start tackling all the problems I've created. Citalopram worked quickly last time.

Please help me

Can you ring ooh doctors for advice?

Hi. Can you phone NHS direct?
Can the thought that you can get some soon get you through?

If you feel really desperate in terms of possibly harming yourself or someone else, or of being in danger of really not being able to function, then your option over the bank holiday would be to go to either A&E or the out of hours GP. But tbh neither is ideal, as it can be a bit hit and miss who you get - they might be great, but they might not be. Alternatively your local mental health crisis team might accept self-referrals, or they may have a liaison psychiatrist with the A&E dept.

If you can hang on till Weds and see a GP you know and trust, and who knows you, then that's probably the best thing to do. But if you can't keep going till then, you should contact one of the emergency options and hope that you get someone helpful.

Good luck. xx

I took citalopram for a couple of years, I have stopped taking it a month ago. When I first took it, it didn't have the immediate effect that you seem to be seeking, so I would wait til your appointment if you can as I don't really think it will make much difference if you get it sooner anyway.
Have you got a close friend / sister / mum you can confide in for now? You say the problems that you've created? Why don't you start a thread on here to get some perspective maybe? I do feel for you, I know how desperate I felt when I reached for AD and it's not a nice place to be. I didn't tell anyone I was taking the AD for quite a long time as I felt ashamed, but it did help me alot.
Sending you a big hug!!!!! xx

'I need something to make me feel normal fast'

Sorry but that is not going to happen, even if you take them today they will take a few days to work so there's no good panicking about getting them today.

If you feel you will kill yourself before Wednesday then speak to Out of Hours or A&E, if not it may be better to wait and speak to your own doctor.

Tell your dh that you will put every effort in to sort out your relationship as soon as you are more stable.

sorry few weeks to work, not days

Thanks. When I first took them they made me feel within hours like I'd been wrapped in a warm blanket - weird but it helped. I'm not going to harm myself because I couldn't do that to DH or my mum. I feel so trapped. I need to feel like I'm doing something to help it. DH is being great even after everything but doesn't know what to do. I just feel so hopeless.

Mumoftwo - I posted on here a week or so ago about my issues and also in relationships if you want to read the back story.

I did have a quick look at one of your posts. I also had an affair which my husband never found out about at the time (I am divorced now). I felt so amazing at the time with the attention and with the secrecy and everything really gave me a buzz. I had such a low opinion of myself, it made me feel great. Well of course that didn't last long!

It took me quite some time to come to terms with what I did and i expect you have a long way to go. BUT I have survived and got through to the other side of it all now. I am divorced and have now met someone else and am happy, hence coming off the AD.

I really hope you start to feel better very soon. The AD really helped me through a difficult time (2 years) and I welcomed that "warm blanket" feeling with open arms, but it was time and support combined with that, that got me through. Try and get an emergency appointment with yr doc on Weds and a referral for counselling /CBT aswell.

Don't beat yourself up, you're only human! We all do things we regret.... xx

Were they ADs OP, what you describe sounds more like the effect of diazepam or similar?

How are you feeling today banana?

It was citalopram mouse, definitely. I've had diazepam before but it didn't have any effect.

Feel awful today Was better yesterday but I have periods of being quite hyper then I just crash. Even when I'm hyper though I'm not happy though it'd probably appear so to anyone else. I can't get OM out of my head. I'm just so ANGRY with him, and with myself for being so stupid. I hate that I've been left feeling so bereft while he's just replaced me and is happy as larry. He just keeps doing more to make me feel worse and I keep finding more that he has lied about because he couldn't face telling me the truth.

I hate that I was half the cause and I could have spared myself and DH all of this. DH doesn't know what to do. I don't know where my feelings for him have gone and if it's because of the depression. I want to shout at OM for being so shit but I can't. I just want to curl into a ball. I can't see how I could ever be happy again. Sorry this is so self indulgent.

Would you be able to get a doctors appointment tomorrow?

Have been (managed to get an on the day appt) and got prescription for citalopram. Still feel rubbish but at least I have that now. She wanted to sign me off work but I asked her not to - don't want them to find out and it does take my mind off things a bit. Still feeling a bit delicate after my Samaritans experience so going to try to take it easy.

Glad to hear you had a successful trip to the GPs. Will you still be there on Fri? Are you down for couples councelling/individual councelling for yourself? That might help you (and your DH) move forward.

That's good news. Did the doctor offer counselling?

Have cancelled the one for Friday. Luckily I saw the really nice doctor today who was great and didn't mind when I cried all through it! I've had a full course of CBT before but it didn't help in the way it was supposed to (ie changing thinking patterns) though the counsellor was great and it helped to talk. I have a follow up appt on Friday. Waiting to get to top of list for counselling.

I just feel so pathetic and dramatic - it's weird because I don't and wouldn't think that of anyone else on ADs or having counselling, and I don't ever think that about anyone's stories I read in this forum, but I feel like I shouldn't. I can't tell my family because they wouldn't understand but at least DH knows.

I only tell people if i'm comfortable it's no one else's business. I'm coming off my ad's I've been on them for 18 months. I tried cbt but it wasn't right for me. I can still remember the relief when I'd seem the doctor.

"pathetic and dramatic" describes how I feel at times, too :)

Glad I'm not the only one! (in a funny way as obviously I don't wish feeling like this on anyone else!)

Took first citalopram a few hours ago. DH just had to help me get ready for bed as I nearly fell over cleaning my teeth. Feel very dizzy and sick and pupils huge. I don't remember this happening last time!!

Hope you slept well at least :)

Um, don't mean to worry you but please be careful with the citalopram! Just reading your post about being hyper but not happy then crashing out: I could have written that 3 years ago, was put on cit which made it worse and after emergency referral to psych was diagnosed with ultra rapid cycling bipolar II. Every person is different (obviously) but as soon as I read that it just set warning bells off in my head. Cit is not supposed to be given to those with bipolar (hence it worsening symptoms) so please keep a close eye on your moods and get to the GP asap if anything changes at all, cit is well know for creating mania in bipolar sufferers. I'm sure all will be fine but just felt I couldn't not say anything xx

Thanks sparklekitty, I'll look out for it. I don't think I'm bipolar - it's not mania as such, just more energetic I suppose - but I will bear that in mind and be wary.

Feeling very tired and a bit jittery. Jaw and tongue feel a bit weird. Had the feeling tired last time I was on it but also had a warm blanket feeling which hasn't happened this time

Glad I didn't panic you hun :)

It's unusual to get an immediate feeling from any AD's. Cit will take about 10 days to kick in, you'll get there tho, just try to sit the next few days out then you'll start feeling tons better xx

Oh god I can't do this. I can't stop thinking about him and thinking I've made a massive mistake. I think I might have to leave DH. I can't go on like this.