Please bear with me as I am not very good at explaining things/good with using the right words.
My DS and I were both sick, the birth went wrong and ended up with my c section opening up and lots of complications.
Our son had undiagnosed reflux and lactose intolerence - he cried constantly for 4 mths til they found out what was wrong (poor wee man).
I was hospitalised with depression/anxiety.
Put on chlopromazine ( high dosage) and venlafaxine and had sleeping tabs til sleep pattern returned while in hospital.
My DH doesn't want me to take them (AD's) as I seemed better - blue in the face trying to explain why this is not a good idea.
I came off them (against doctors advice) and starting to feel very unwell mentally again - cant afford to go to hospital again and have time off work as CTC was overpaid and they clawed money back leaving us in a really bad way financially as it is.
Thankfully work put me on nightshifts (I requested) as I don't see people and they don't see me having bouts of crying etc.
I have started taking AD's secretly again today as I've had some very dark thoughts and feel myself ready to go again.
Cant seem to do right for doing wrong. Has anyone any advice please?
My DH is a good man he just doesn't seem to understand. Maybe I am not explaining things well enough.
My CPN stopped visiting too as they closed my case when I got better - MY coping strategies are not working well anymore. Help.