sorry but i really need

[charmed24]

to let it all out, theres been times where i have felt very depressed but just brushed it under the carpet but its getting harder just feel down all the time dont want to do anything and really have to force my self to do something i really hate myself for feeling like this i dot know what to do dd is 15 months now and is a little treasure!!! i just want to lock myself away and not have to see anybody ive got to go to work later and i really dont know if i can face it i work in a supermarket on a till so see alot of people i have people ask me round for a cup of tea but i always make up some reason why i cant make it all i want to do is hide away but i cant i wake up in the morning and i want to stay there sorry to go on just need to let it all out

hello charmed! You are not alone in what you are feeling and don't be hard on yourself! You cannot possibly hate yourself for loving your dd with all your heart and working to provide for her. This makes you a good mother! If I was to offer any advice, it would be to take up these offers of cups of tea and wotnot, even if you really don't feel like it. You probably will feel better for the change of scenery. I suspect a LOT of mothers hide these feelings away for fear of being branded as someone who cannot cope, but this is simply not true! IT IS A HARD JOB! You sound like a lovely person and you must start telling yourself that you are
Also - do you have an approachable health visitor you can talk to?

i meet my hv in may for about five minutes as we moved and she popped round to say hello dont even know her name

Please make yourself known to her charmed. You sound like such a lovely person, but NO-ONE can do this job without a wee bit of help!

You canget all sorts of advice on this website also - just scour the threads and ask for help. There is no-one here who doesn't understand your situation.

x

thank you