FUUUUCK!!!!

[Arana]

My fucking head is playing tricks on me - I don't know if I'm being perceptive or irrational.

Can't get the thoughts out of my head.

When the fuck is this depression and fucked up paranoia going to leave me alone?

Been on 200mg sertraline for two weeks after starting at 50mg 3 months ago, and it's done fuckall. Except make me sweat so much I had to go buy new clothes at lunchtime.

Fuck this bullshit.

Arana

It seems that sertraline is not working for you. 3 months is long enough to try it. Go back to doc and try something else.

That sounds like a large jump up in dosage. That said, I gather from my situation GP that one can be almost there, then take a tumble back down quite far to the bottom :( But like the wise madmouse says, go back to your dr and get something different in your life (maybe new meds, maybe now's the time for councilling or time off work)
Good luck! If it helps, I've been telling my dissease to fuck the fuck off not that it listens

Thanks guys - I went from 150 to 200mg a week and a half ago, so I'm still at the stage of being down before I go up.

I did also have a major setback about a month ago that sent me spiralling back again, so I'm not expecting miracles.

Thankfully, I can recognise when I'm being paranoid and irrational, and I can limit the damage I am capable of by not texting/facebooking/calling until I'm feeling better. That's where mumsnet comes into its own of being a safe place I can let rip without causing irreparable damage.

Thanks again guys :)

ah, ok that makes more sense re your meds :)

my set back was only 2 weeks ago, does that mean I should expect more time feeling like shit before I feel better again? ahem back to supportive

You sound a bit more cheerful today? Also, yes: thank heavens for MN, where people know us but not IRL! :)

Still really struggling.

I have ADHD as well that compoubnds the depression issues. Today I have achieved absolutely nothing because I've had total mental paralysis all day.

I don't think the Sertraline is working. I've been on 200mg for nearly three weeks now, and it should really be starting to work now. I'm antsier than normal - I have a million thoughts, I'm full of anger and frustration, and then as soon as it stops, as soon as I have down time, my depression hits me like a freight train and I can barely move.

Thankfully I'm not suicidal at the moment. It helps. But I genuinely feel like I'm going mad. Like I've got nothing to lose, which is bullshit, because I love love LOVE my gorgeous children and my very accommodating husband.

I don't know what to do.

I see the psych again next weekend. Just hope I don't get fired before then. Or spend too much money.

Don't you hate the lies depression tells? Just take it one day at a time, one step at a time. Like blighty said, we're here for you!