that it can give some kind of "relief" in real life?
this is going to sound bizarre, i was tempted to put this in chat where i knew it would disappear but thought i might sound a little unhinged!
without going over old ground i had some very specific therapy for childhood trauma, and the therapist said that it "unlocks" the mind so that you are free to move those memories to where they belong, the therapy was called "rewind" therapy and takes the emotion out of the memory while still leaving the memory in tact. She said i may have vivid dreams following the therapy.
seems to have worked and ive been fine. Usually works within on session.
This morning i awoke to remember a very vivid but rather satisfying dream, in which i confronted my abuser, and i shouted and shouted, vented my fury, and i was really eloquent and i said all the things that i feel like i should have said if id ever had the chance. I remember very vividly shouting at him that he was an abuser. The reality is this will never happen because he is dead, so thats pretty final.
but it stayed with me and felt pretty bloody good to do, even in a dream. These are feelings and emotions i suppose i have never confronted, until the therapy. I suppose it brought all the anger i should feel to the fore, albeit subconsciously.
I dont remember feeling anger at all during the session, just extreme sadness (i could not speak for sobbing to begin with, as she asked me to remember an incident in order to hook the emotion with which to start the therapy) but this sadness diminished as the session progressed.
Do you think this is my brains way of processing what happened? to act out in a dream what i should have done? interested in peoples thoughts on this, or if this has ever happened to anyone else.
cheers