My youngest dd is almost 2, and I have been struggling with PND since her traumatic birth. I've had the crisis team involved for a couple of months and have had my medication changed and then increased in may last year and then again a couple of months ago. I have regular visits from a cpn and am on a waiting list for psychology 1 to 1 sessions. I keep feeling better, in as much as my mood improves, but the it dips again, I am struggling with my kids ( almost 9, 5 and almost 2) I haven't control over their behaviour and just can not deal with it. I feel like I want to run away again and also wish I could go to sleep and not wake up (but I'm not suicidal) just wish life was easier, but in reality my life isn't that hard.
Sorry for the essay and waffle, I just need to vent and hope someone understands where I am coming from.