Ive been thinkng back and I think Ive been feeling like this for a couple of years but sometimes I go through a couple of weeks where Im really happy and everything goes well .I feel like now Iv been putting on a happy face in front of my parents , DP and then at work and Im just tired of pretending to be cheery all the time when all I want to do is lie in my bed and cry .I feel so useless at everything like Im juggling everything allthe time and everyday I just manage to struggle through .Im studying a full time distance learning degreee which I really dont enjoy anymore , work part time and have a horse .Recently I dont want to ride or do anything with her.I cant be bothered with work even though In used to love my job and everyone at work.Iv felt sad and teary before but now I feel so empty .Sorry this is a bit rambly , I just dont know what eelse to do apart from post on here , my parents are wrapped up in themselves or I dont want to let them or DP down .