I had to start taking my ADs again in February after nearly a year off. Basically I had a major dip to the point when I seriously thought about ending it all. Beginning slowly slowly to feel better. Back to running, bought some new clothes, getting a hair cut - all about raising self-esteem and confidence but I have a way to go.
While I was struggling I didn't see many friends. Didn't have the energy to dedicate to anyone or anything but my immediate family, work and keeping breathing. Last weekend I was invited to a birthday party - DH couldn't go so DS2 and I went along. The minute I got through the door I was treated to a litany of woes and worries 'Ooh we've had a bad few months... it's been really dreadful'. I listened and sympathised left feeling like I'd been run over by a bus. Next day we visited another set of friends, more or less the same thing happened re health problems. I guess they have get used to me being an emotional sponge who always listens and gives hugs but I don't think I can do it anymore. One of them keeps texting and asking when she can come over for a chat... and I don't want to talk to her.
I didn't tell anyone how I have been because it's private and not that interesting to anyone else but perhaps I should have.
What do you do when people wear you down? I feel so bad that I can't support but there isn't enough of me to do so atm.