Up and Down

[dottyspotty2]

I've felt so good the last week or so think a lot of it has been the weather, started letting go of so much control and listening to my body if I do to much I get shaky. Tonight I feel like hell I really don't know if I want to put my family through another downward spiral feel like taking off and never coming back it would be so much better for them. DH and I don't have a relationship anymore and its all my fault he deserves better than me as do my kids their grown up and don't need me anymore anyway. Really beginning to regret what I've done now.

Oi you, how many times do I need to tell you that up and down is part of the game for now. You did the right thing and you will get through this.

From what I've seen on fb you have been doing lots and lots so you're probably tired too.

Your kids need you now as much as ever. They may not need their bums wiping but they still need their mum.

You know I've done the run away for everyone else's sake thing too. But they need you and you need them. What can you do to take your mind off things and relax tonight? Can you phone one of your supportive friends and relatives?

Have you started in the book?

Hang in there xxx

I know but I really thought I was over it apart from one tiny blip in the supermarket I've been fine (apart from sleep) I've done nothing today apart from ironing emptying shed and helping DH a tiny bit to pull it down. Other than that I walked back from garage, to hairdressers and back for car. Felt really good after getting a haircut and a friendly chat. Yes I have started it. X

Um yes so you did a lot...

Hello Dotty. I have just started a sort of similar thread. I think the good weather has conned us into thinking we are invincible. I did too much today too xxxxx

Madmouse Walking I enjoy don't class that as doing anything beautiful surroundings help. It sounds daft but DH and I went for a drive and got fish and chips can't remember last time we did sometthing so simple, told him I felt myself going again he couldn't understand it either. He just needs to say the wrong thing and I go to bits but I don't allow him to see me like that anymore, he's seen me like to much.