DH and I want to try for a second baby (DD is 2.5). Been on and off Citalopram for about 10 years - every time I come off it I get depressed within weeks. Last time - when pregnant with DD - it went downhill really badly and I was referred to CMHT and went back on ADs in the 6th month of pregnancy - I improved so much and combined with therapy I've been fine ever since. Swore I'd never stop taking them again but of course GP wanted me to come off them to try for a new baby. In fact, the nurse at the practice refused to take my IUD out before that.
While cutting down on the ADs (and eventually stopping them altogether) I did everything I could to prevent depression, like going to the gym a lot. But last week it happened very suddenly that I stopped coping. All the familiar signs are there - anger, irritation, loss of patience & sense of humour, extreme fatigue, isolation, etc. In the space of a few days I've already had so many arguments with DH and been impatient with DD. I called my GP this morning who said she'll contact an obstetrician to find out about side effects of citalopram on fetus. I used to be on 20 mg but I told her I'd probably cope on 10 mg. What if she rings back to say I can't try for a baby while on ADs? I haven't even had the IUD taken out yet. All I know is I can't live like this. I have no strength to cope with anything and I've already had a mini breakdown that sadly my daughter witnessed. I'm normally a good mother I think and although I desperately want another baby I will not do it at the cost of everything else. I know now that my brain cannot function normally without ADs, I've been through this so many times before.
So, what I was wondering was: has anyone here been on ADs while pregnant? How much and during what stage of pregnancy? What did your GP say about it? Was your DC fine afterwards? Or did anyone struggle through pregnancy without ADs? Are you happy that you did or do you wish with hindsight that you'd done it differently? Sorry this is long and thank you if you made it this far.