Please, please someone tell me it's worth carrying on with the ADs despite feeling suicidal since taking them for a week

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I suffer from anxiety and depression-the depression got much worse recently so went to GP who prescribed me Amitriptyline. Previously Citalapram & Mirtazipan were unsuccessful-they made the anxiety much worse and gave me panic attacks.
I've been taking Amitriptyline since last Friday. At first I thought great, much less severe side effects than the previous times I'd tried ADs, so I have continued taking them. I still felt desperatley depressed and unable to do do anything, but I haven't felt panicky and paranoid as such. So I have been sticking it out in the hope that I would soon start to feel better.

But this morning I feel almost suicidal. I feel as if I just can't carry on living with the mental pain anymore. It's like I have a "white noise" inside my head and it's throbbing with negative thoughts and anguish.

Please, does anyone have experience of feeling this desperate before getting
better first. Is it worth perservering in the hope that this terrible stage will give in to soon feeling better.

I don't want to stop taking them as I've never given ADs a proper chance to work before, but I'm in a real quandry.

Perservere or stop?

Please someone help me. I'm all alone and just want to curl up and never wake up again. I feel as if I'm in a living nightmare and sleep is my only respite

Do you think they will make me feel better soon.
Is ther anyone with a similar experience, who carried on and felt better.

Is it sometimes called "neuro liguistic processing"

Should read Linguistic

No NanaNina it has nothing to do with Neurolinguistic Programming.

Thanks Madmouse I will pass this on to my friend who is a Samaritan. She says 80% of the calls are about mental health, but she always get stuck on PTSD as many callers have had therapy for considerable periods of time and are still suffering. Maybe she could recommend this therapy. I will google it.

PTSD can take a long time to get under control - it took 3 years for me. And the treatment can be difficult because a) You need to get lucky on the NHS if you are to be offered the therapy you actually need and b) avoidance of the pain is a key part of the condition, making many sufferers reluctant to deal with the memories. They prefer to suffer in the way they are rather than open up and deal with the traumatic stuff.

I have taken the step to dive into the traumatic memories and due to the depth of them (long term severe sex. abuse mixed with trauma over nearly losing ds) it's nearly killed me at times (not helped by not being on medication - ADs are generally recommended for PTSD and I can see why). But it's worked and the traumatic memories are not vivid anymore.