A month back on cit and starting to see the sun

[OrmIrian]

Much better really. More stable, coping better with stress and the usual day-to-day hassles. Less bad-tempered, fewer tears. So all in all better. But still so tired. My favourite bit of the day is when I climb into bed and know I can just let go for a while. Out like a light until the wee small hours when I wake up and can't get back to sleep for an hour or so.

Can't quite shake the idea that I am going to be dependent on these things for the rest of my life. I'm a permanently medicated fruit-loop. Ah well... I just wish I knew why. I was 'normal' until I had the kids.

I've been Citalopram for a few years now. It saved my life. I'm only on 20mg and that suits me fine now. I suspect I will be on it forever. That's not so bad, is it?

I've been on 20mg for a good 4 years. I suffer with anxiety and panic attacks. I previously took flouexotine (soz for mis-spelling) but the effects wore off and I switched to Citalopram.

I know that I will be on this for the rest of my life but tbh I am fine with it. If it helps me live a 'normal' life then it's all good.

I think we can sometimes be too harsh on ourselves for needing a little help but life is hard and there is absolutely no shame in needing some assistance. I would rather be on Citalopram than finding myself running away from almost all situations I find myself in!

on prozac. struggled with dep for my whole life. spent 2 yrs on seroxat in my early 20's and that in itself nearly killed me.

had a breakdown twice, then got on to prozac, and have remained level for ten yrs now and can't see me living without it tbh.

big hugs and i hope you stay level too x

Hi Omirian, I remember your other thread, I'm so glad you are feeling better, I thought you would. Just remember if and when you do decide to come off again to switch to liquid and taper excrutiatingly slow

Thanks everyone.

I know I should simply be grateful to be so much better. And I am. Hugely grateful. But there is a little bit of me that resents it. Hence trying to come off it last spring - and failing dismally. Daft really as I take athsma medication all the time without questioning it. I guess I am myself still subject to that stupid prejudice against MH.

What always amazes me is how un-unique I am. So many many people suffer from depression. Makes you wonder if that has always been the case or if modern life is more stressful.

Atm I am taking each day as it comes and simply being happy when it comes with pleasures and contentment.